By now it’s lunchtime and my stomach is snarling at me. There are people hawking food to the riders, but it’s expensive and everything smells like blood and bad fish. There’s no sign of Finn. The tide is starting to creep in and some of the less brave souls have already left the beach. I retreat a bit and press my back against the chalk cliff, my hands spread out on the cold surface. Several feet above my head, the chalk is lighter, marking where the water will rise in a few hours. I imagine standing here until it does, salt water slowly swallowing me.
Tears of frustration burn behind my eyes. The worst of it is that I’m sort of glad they all said no. These terrifying monsters are not at all like Dove, and I can’t even start to imagine myself trying one out, much less taking it home and training it to eat expensive, bloody meat instead of me. In the summer, children sometimes catch dragonflies and tie strings round them, just behind their eyes, and lead them like they are pets. Those dragonflies are what these grown men look like with the capaill uisce. The horses drag them around like they have no weight whatsoever. What would they do to me?
I look out across the sea. Close to the shore, the water is turquoise in places where white rocks have fallen from the cliffs into the water, and black where dark brown kelp covers the boulders. Somewhere across all these buckets of water are the cities we’ll lose Gabe to. I know we’ll never see him again. It won’t matter that he’s still alive somewhere; it will be just as bad as Mum and Dad.
Mum liked to say that some things happen for a reason, that sometimes obstacles were there to stop you from doing something stupid. She said this to me a lot. But when she said it to Gabe, Dad told him that sometimes it just means you need to try harder.
I take a deep breath and head back toward the only bowler hat who doesn’t avoid my eye. The gnome. He has only one horse in his hands now: the piebald mare that screamed earlier.
“Heh, you!” He says this as if I’m about to pass him by.
“I think we need to talk,” I tell him. I feel unfriendly and messy. Any charm I had when I started this is back at home with the makings of a sandwich.
“I was thinkin’ the same thing. I’m about to be off. I’d rather not be back tomorrow and you’d rather have a capall. What will you give me for her?”
My first reaction is to think, Well, how much do I have? and then I come to my senses and remember his unhelpfulness from earlier. “Nothing up front,” I say. I have to be firm on this. If Gabe really does leave us to fend for ourselves, we’ll have nothing at the end, either. “I’m just looking for a fifth.”
“This mare is amazing,” the gnome says. “Fastest thing on land at the moment.” He stands back so I can see her, restless on the end of the lead, a chain wrapped over her nose and fed through her halter. She is drop-dead gorgeous and absolutely giant. I feel I could stack Dove on top of Dove and only then be able to look the piebald in her wild eye. She stinks like a corpse washed up after a storm. She eyes one of the loose dogs that darts around the beach. Something about her gaze is deeply unsettling.
“Then you wouldn’t mind taking a gamble on her,” I say. I feel petulant but I try to sound businesslike. It’s not the easiest thing in the world trying to be treated like an adult during a negotiation when the idea of driving a successful bargain is making you a little sick to your stomach.
“I’m not in the mood to come back and collect,” the monger says.
I cross my arms. I pretend I’m Gabe. He has a way of looking both unimpressed and disinterested when he’s really both of these things. I sound as bored as possible. “Either she’s everything you say, or she isn’t. If she’s the fastest thing on four legs, don’t you trust her to win more than you could sell her for?”
The gnome eyes me. “It’s not her I don’t trust.”
I glower at him. “I was just thinking the same thing.”
He grins suddenly.
“Get up on her, then,” the monger says. “Let’s see what you got.” He jerks his head toward his saddle, tipped up on its pommel on the sand.
I take a deep breath and try not to remember her scream from earlier. I try not to think about how my parents died. I need to think about Gabe and his face when he said that he was leaving. I feel like my hands are fluttering, but they’re quite still at my sides.
I can do this.
CHAPTER EIGHT
PUCK
The monger leads the mare up to one of the kelp-covered boulders for me to use as a mounting block. She fidgets around and around, never quite close enough to it. She won’t stop looking at the dog that’s hovering around interested in someone’s rejected breakfast near her hooves. The wind is cold on my neck and my toes are numb little stones in my boots.
“She’s not getting any stiller than this,” the monger says. “Are you on or off?”
My hands are balled into fists to keep them from betraying me. All I can think of is those massive teeth pulling my parents down into the ocean. It’s not even fear that’s stopping me right now. It’s imagining them watching me from wherever they might be — Can they see this beach from heaven? Maybe the cliffs block the view — and thinking about what they would say. They’d always scoffed at the races and the horses had killed them in their boat and now here I was going to get on one of them to ride in the races. I can just imagine Dad’s face and the way a small semicircle wrinkle appeared on his upper lip when he got disgusted or disappointed.
The mare jerks her head up; the gnome is nearly lifted from his feet.
There has to be another way. There has to be something I can do that will keep me off this horse. But how can I ride in the races without her?
I realize then that Finn has appeared from nowhere to stand beside the boulder I’m balanced on. He doesn’t say anything. His fingers are pinching his upper arms over and over again as he looks up at me, but he doesn’t seem to notice them.
“Stop that,” I tell him, and he stops. I think I’ve made up my mind.
“Girlie,” the monger says. “Come on now.” The mare’s muscles shudder beneath her skin.
This isn’t who I am.
I say, “I’m sorry. I’ve changed my mind.”
I just have time to see him roll his eyes when everything becomes a blur of motion. There is a surge of black and white, and a shove pushes me from the boulder. My breath gasps out in two massive puffs as my back slams the ground. Part of my face goes warm and wet. As the mare rears above me, I realize that there is something screaming at the same time I realize that the wetness on my face is blood, coming from above, not from me. Draining from the thing in the piebald mare’s jaws.
I roll out of the way of the hooves, scrubbing sand from my eyes, trying to straighten. Trying to get my breath back. Trying to see. The mare crouches, shaking her dark quarry. She’s ripping it, holding part down with a hoof. The sand pools blood.
I scream Finn’s name.
Now the mare tosses part of her victim at me, ears flattened back. I half gasp, half sob, jumping back from the bloody joint. There’s something stringy coming out of it, like jellyfish tentacles. I want to just kneel down and stop thinking.
The piece in front of me is covered with short, dark hair, matted with sand and blood. It’s a ruin, almost unrecognizable. I am in danger of throwing up.
It’s the dog.
People are shouting, “Sean Kendrick!” but I’m shouting, “Finn!” and there he is. He is a copy of the weird carvings on the church doorway in Skarmouth, little old men with big round eyeballs.
He says, “I thought —”
I know, because it’s what I was thinking, too.
“Please don’t ride her,” Finn says, fervent. I can’t quite remember the last time he’s asked me something and sounded like he really meant it. “Don’t ride one of them.”
“I’m not,” I say. “I’m riding Dove.”
CHAPTER NINE
SEAN
That evening, long after everyone is driven inland by the high tide, I bring Corr down to the beach. Our shadows are giants before us; this time of year, it gets dark at five and the sand is already cooling. I leave my saddle and boots at the top of the boat ramp, where grass still grows through the soft sand. Corr’s eyes are on the ocean as it slowly slides back toward low tide.
We leave fresh prints in the hard-packed sand the tide’s left behind; it is frigid against my bare feet, especially when cold seawater presses out of the ground around my skin. My blistered feet welcome it.
End of the first day, the endless first day. The beach has had its share of casualties. One boy fell off and bloodied his forehead on a boulder. Another man got bitten, an impressive-looking wound, but nothing a pint and a few hours of sleep won’t fix. And then there was the dog. I couldn’t be surprised that its maiming was the piebald mare’s handiwork.
All in all, there’ve been worse starts to the training.
This evening, the registration will start at Gratton’s. I’ll put my name and Corr’s there, though at this point it feels like a formality. Then there will be a frantic week of uncertain islanders and tourists trying out horses to see if they have the nerve to truly race, and if they do, if they have the nerve to race on the horse they have beneath them. Horses will be bought, sold, bartered. Men become owners, fifths, riders. It’s a frustrating time for me. Too much negotiation and not enough training. It’s always a relief when the festival ends the first week and forces riders to officially declare their mounts.
That’s really when life begins.
Corr lifts his head, ears pricked, neck curved, as if he’s courting the Scorpio sea. I whisper to him and tug his lead. It’s me I want him paying attention to, not the song of this powerful water. I watch his eye, his ears, the line of his body, to see whose voice will be more potent tonight, mine or the ocean’s.
He jerks his head toward me so fast that I have an iron rod out of my pocket before he’s finished his turn. But he wasn’t attacking, merely moving to study me with his good eye.
I trust Corr more than any of them.
I should not trust him at all.
His neck is soft, though the skin around his eyes is tight, so into the surf we go. I let my breath out in a rush as the cold water creeps up my ankles. And then we stand there, and I watch him again, seeing what effect the magic eddying around his ankles has. He shivers but doesn’t tense; we have done this before and the month is young. I cup a handful of salt water and tip it onto his shoulder, my lips pressed against his skin, whispering. Still he stands. So I stand with him and let the gritty surf work on my tired feet.
Corr, red as the sunset, looks out to the ocean. The shore faces east and so he looks out to night, deep blue and then black, the sky and the water mirror images. Our shadows fall into the ocean, too, changing colors with the breakers and foam beneath them. When I look at Corr’s shadow, I see an elegant giant. When I look to mine, for the first time, I see my father’s shadow. Not quite my father’s. My shoulders don’t have his slight hunch, as if against perpetual cold. And his hair was longer. But it is there in the rigid posture, the chin always lifted, a horseman even on the ground.
I am caught off guard, so when Corr moves up and away, I do nothing. He is in a half-rear before I realize it, but then he brings both his hooves down in the exact same place they left, making a mighty wall of water spray my face. I stand there, salt in my mouth, and I see that his ears are pricked at me, neck arched.
For the first time in days, I laugh. In response to the sound, Corr shakes his head and neck like a dog shedding water. I back up a few steps in the water and he follows me, and then I come after him and kick a splash at his body. He winces, looking deeply wounded, and then paws to splash me in return. Back and forth we go — I never have my back to him — as he follows me and I him. He pretends to drink the water and tosses his head in mock disgust. I pretend to drink a handful and throw it at him.
Finally, I am out of breath and my feet are sore from the pebbles and the water is nearly too cold to bear. I go to Corr and he lowers his head, pressing his face against my chest; he is warm through my soaked shirt. I trace a letter on the skin behind his ears, to still him, and I rub my fingers through his mane, to still me.
Not too far away, I hear a distant splash. It could be a fish, although it would have to be sizable for me to hear it over the breakers. I look out over the sea as it turns to black.
I don’t think it is a fish, and neither does Corr, who is again looking out toward the horizon. Now he trembles, and when I back out of the surf, it takes a long minute to convince him to follow. He takes one slow step, then another, until the water is no longer touching him, and then he stops, rigid legged. He looks back to the sea, lifts his head, and curls back his lip.
I snap the lead sharply and press the iron into Corr’s chest, before he can call. While he’s in my hands he won’t sing their song.
As I walk back up the gradual slope to the boat slip, I see silhouettes at the top of the road to Skarmouth. They are standing at the ridge where it meets the sky, black against purple. Though they’re distant, one of them is the unmistakably graceless form of Mutt Malvern. Their posture is undeniably interested in my progress, so I’m wary as I make my way.
It doesn’t take me long to discover that Mutt Malvern has pissed in my boots.
They’re laughing now on the ridge. I won’t give Mutt the satisfaction of my disgust, so I tip the boots out — this beach is too good for his urine — and tie their laces together. I let them hang on either side of the saddle on Corr’s back and start up the slope. Though it’s nearly dark, there’s still a lot to get done; I have to be to Gratton’s before ten. The day stretches out in front of me, invisible in the darkness.