I don’t really miss Mr. Pickles. Don’t tell Caro.
She was asleep within minutes, but I lay awake, listening to the crickets. It’s funny how, even though Caro doesn’t live on my street, it still sounds the same outside, bugs and distant cars and a silence so loud that it can wake you up, or worse, keep you from falling asleep.
Caro rolled over next to me and slung her arm over my shoulders. Mr. Pickles 2.0. “Caro?” I whispered.
Nothing.
“Caro, get off.” I gave her a shove and she just snuggled down against my arm. I sighed. The things I do for our friendship. “Caro?” I whispered again. “Are you awake?”
She wasn’t, of course, which made it easier to confide in her. “He kissed me,” I murmured. “Outside at the party.”
Caro just snuffled.
“Well, congrats for you,” came a sleepy voice in the direction of Heather’s bed. “Now will you shut up, please?”
“Sweet dreams, Heather,” I said, hoping that my sarcasm was able to reach her through her dirty sheets and probably bedbug-ridden pillows.
“Whatever.”
I rolled over, away from Caro so that I was on the very edge of the bed, my arm pressed against the mattress seam. “But he did,” I whispered, this time to myself, and it was there, dangling on the precipice between awake and asleep, that I finally tumbled over the edge.
CHAPTER NINETEEN
“Guess who’s invited us over for dinner next week!” my mom said the second I walked in through the back door on Saturday. It was lunchtime, at least I thought it was. We had all—me, Caro, Heather, Heather’s bedbugs—slept late the next morning, then Caro’s oldest brother, Michael, made blueberry pancakes, which we ate while watching cartoons. The fact that we were hungover went unsaid, but the pancakes and coffee had helped.
A little.
“Who?” I said, wincing at her too-perky tone. “The queen? Do I get to wear a tiara?”
“You’re always so cranky after you sleep over at Caro’s,” my mom replied. “What time did you go to bed last night?”
I shrugged. “Dunno. Two?”
“That is WAY too late,” she said. “Caro’s parents are okay with that?”
I shrugged again as my dad strolled into the room. “What’s too late?” he asked.
“She stays up way too late when she goes over to Caroline’s house,” my mom informed him.
“All we did was watch movies,” I said. “It’s like sleeping with your eyes open. And it’s rude to talk about someone like they’re not there.” I reached for a banana out of the fruit bowl. “Manners matter.”
Both of my parents gave me a Look. “What, exactly, are you learning at school?” my dad said, shaking his head. “My tax dollars at work, I swear.”
“Our tax dollars,” my mom corrected him. “Promise me you’ll take a nap later today, okay?”
“Twist my arm,” I replied, not bothering to mention that taking a nap was already on my Short List of Priorities that day.
And so was talking to Oliver.
I had checked my phone the minute I woke up, waiting to see a text or missed call or something from him, but I just had junk emails from SAT prep programs and a few “Don’t you want to apply HERE?” colleges. (Those colleges were like clingy boyfriends or girlfriends. No one wants to go to school there when they’re so desperate to get people to do just that. They needed to start playing hard to get, I thought, or no one was going to ask them to prom.)
I had deleted everything, but Heather caught me checking my phone three separate times at breakfast. “No word from Lover Boy?” she asked around a mouthful of syrup and blueberries, which was exactly as attractive as it sounds.
Caro, however, dropped her fork. “Who?” she asked me. “Who’s she talking about?”
Michael flipped another pancake at the stove, the sudden sizzling sound reminding me of an old torture technique. “Can we, um . . . ?” I nodded my head in the direction of Caro’s siblings.
Caro didn’t need to be told twice. She grabbed our plates, napkins, and silverware. “Get the syrup!” she called to me as she ran upstairs, and since I happen to love both syrup and Caro, I obeyed.
“Are we seriously going to eat in your room?” I asked as I ran up the stairs after her.
“What? No! Are you insane?” She beckoned me into the bathroom, then shut the door behind us.
I looked around. “You want me to eat breakfast in the bathroom?”
“I don’t care if you eat breakfast in here or not. I just want you to talk and this is the most private place in the house. What am I hearing? You told Heather something important, but not me?” She punched me twice in the shoulder. “Slugbug Betrayal!”
“I don’t think that’s how the game works,” I said, reaching for my pancakes. “And I thought I was telling you, but you were already asleep. Heather happened to be awake and I didn’t even know she was in the room at first.”
“Ugh, she’s the worst. So, anyway. Lover Boy.” Caro narrowed her eyes at me and managed to look intimidating even with a drop of syrup on her chin and pancake batter in her hair. “Did you . . . kiss Oliver?”
I nodded, no longer interested in eating. “Outside. Last night, when we were sitting in the gazebo.”
“You kissed him in the gazebo? Oh my God, what kind of weirdo romantic are you?” But Caro was grinning from ear to ear. “Was it good? Is he a good kisser?”