I felt my face get hot, enough that Val noticed, and she narrowed her eyes.
“You’re blushing.”
“No, I’m not.”
“And now, you’re lying.”
“It’s the coffee.”
Val stared deep into my eyes. “You haven’t even taken a sip. Something I said embarrassed you. Maddox…tail…”
I shifted under her intense stare.
“You live in Midtown.”
“No,” I said, shaking my head. I wasn’t denying my residence but what I knew she would soon discover. Damn having friends who are federal investigators for a living.
“Maddox is your neighbor, isn’t he?”
I shook my head faster, looking around. “Val, no…stop…”
“Fuckity. You’re joking. Maddox is your one-night stand!” she hissed, thankfully keeping her voice to a whisper.
I covered my face and then let my forehead fall to my desk. I could hear her leaning over the cubicle.
“Oh my God, Liis. Did you just die when you saw him? How could you not know? How did he not know? He hired you, for Christ’s sake!”
“I don’t know,” I said, rocking my head from side to side, my fingers digging into the edge of my desk. I sat up, pulling down the thin skin beneath my eyelids as I did so. “I’m fucked, aren’t I?”
“At least once that I know of.” Val stood, her badge wagging as she did so. She smirked at me, sliding her slender long fingers into her pockets.
I looked up at her, desperate. “Just kill me now. Put me out of my misery. You have a gun. You can do it.”
“Why would I do that? This is the best thing to happen to this squad in years. Maddox got laid.”
“You’re not going to tell anyone, right? Promise me.”
Val grimaced. “We’re friends. I wouldn’t do that.”
“That’s right. We’re friends.”
She craned her neck toward me. “Why are you talking to me like I’m a mental patient?”
I blinked and shook my head. “I’m sorry. I’m quite possibly having the worst day of my life.”
“Well, you look hot.” She walked away.
“Thanks,” I said to myself as I scanned the room.
No one had heard our discussion, but it still felt like the secret was out. I sank back into my chair and slipped on my headphones as Val left the squad room for the security doors leading into the hallway.
I covered my mouth for a moment and sighed, feeling lost. How had I messed up my fresh start so thoroughly and before it even started?
Not only had I screwed my boss, but if the other agents also found out, it could jeopardize any chances I would have at promotions while under Maddox’s supervision. If he had any integrity at all, he would continually pass me over in fear that the truth would come out. A promotion would look bad for both of us—not that it mattered. Maddox had made a point to let everyone know that he wasn’t impressed with my work—a report that I had given one-hundred percent, and my best was damn good.
I looked over my transcript and shook my head. The translation was spot-on. The report was comprehensive. I hovered the mouse over the right-facing arrow and clicked it, playing the audio again.
The longer the two Italian men’s voices bantered about a job and the hooker one of them had had relations with the night before, the more my cheeks reddened with anger. I took pride in my reports. It was my first assignment at the San Diego field office, and Maddox calling me out in front of everyone had just been poor form.
Then, I thought about lunch with Val the day before and the warnings she’d given me about Maddox.
“He will tell you that you’re worthless as an agent even if you’re the best of the best just so he can observe your performance when your confidence has been crushed.”
I ripped the headphones from my head and gripped the report in my hands. I rushed toward the ASAC’s office at the far end of the squad room.
I paused upon seeing the stunningly beautiful woman who served as a checkpoint before one could enter Maddox’s office suite. The nameplate on her desk read CONSTANCE ASHLEY, a name that suited her with her white-blonde hair falling in soft waves, cascading just a bit over her shoulders, nearly matching her porcelain skin. She peered up at me from under thick lashes, and she practically batted her eyes at me.
“Agent Lindy,” she said with just a hint of a Southern twang. Constance’s rosy cheeks, poise, and down-home disposition were all a ruse. Her steely blue eyes betrayed her.
“Miss Ashley,” I said, nodding.
She offered a sweet smile. “Just Constance.”
“Just Liis.” I tried not to sound as impatient as I felt. She was nice, but I was rather anxious to speak with Maddox.
She touched the tiny apparatus in her ear and then nodded. “Agent Lindy, I’m afraid Special Agent Maddox is away from his desk. May I set up an appointment?”
“Where is he?” I asked.
“That’s classified,” she said, her sweet smile unwavering.
I flicked my badge. “Thankfully, I have top-secret clearance.”
Constance wasn’t amused.
“I need to speak with him,” I said, trying not to beg. “He is expecting my report.”
She touched the small plastic device again and nodded. “He’ll return after lunch.”
“Thank you,” I said, turning on my heels and heading back the way I’d come.