“This is totally outside the range of my experience,” Mr. Needlemier said. Then he added, unnecessarily, “I’m frightened, Alfred.”
“Doing something helps,” I told him. “Otherwise it just eats you alive. Do you know about the secret chamber beneath Mr. Samson’s desk?”
He stared at me and didn’t say anything.
“Guess not. There’s a secret chamber under Mr. Samson’s desk. The desktop lifts up and there’s a keypad. The numbers correspond to letters just like on a telephone. The code is my name.”
“Your name?”
“I don’t remember the numbers off the top of my head, but the code is ‘Alfred.’ When you get it open, put the Vessel inside and lock it back down again. Understand?”
He nodded. “Yes, I understand. Is there anything else, Alfred?” “I don’t want to be adopted by Horace Tuttle.”
“Of course, but you understand the final decision is up to the judge.”
“And I don’t want him to be the trustee of the estate. I want you to be.”
“Me?”
“And if I don’t make it back—and I probably won’t—I want you to take all the money and give it away.”
“Give it—who do I give it to?”
“I don’t know. Find some worthy people. Start with the kids living with the Tuttles. Especially the kid named Kenny. Take care of him, Mr. Needlemier.”
“Of course.”
“I’m telling you this in case things don’t work out. Anyway, I’m talking too much. I have to go. Good-bye, Mr. Needlemier.”
Back at the CCR, I told Op Nine, “You’re driving.” I dug the old book from the duffel bag, along with a map. “I’ve got to study.”
52
“We’re taking I-75 all the way,” I told Op Nine, tracing the route with my index finger. “It goes right through Gainesville.”
I wasted about two minutes trying to refold the map. What is it about maps? Folding them is like trying to work a puzzle. I gave up and stuffed it behind my headrest. Then I opened The Ars Goetia and flipped through it, looking for the Words of Command.
Op Nine glanced over at me.
“If not spoken exactly, word for word, the command will fail,” he pointed out.
“Thanks for the tip,” I muttered. “There’s about twenty different incantations here. Which one do I use?”
“The Words of Constraint.”
That particular spell went on for half a page. Even on my best days, I was horrible at memorization. I looked over at him.
Ask him, a voice whispered inside my head. Ask and hear his answer!
It didn’t surprise me, hearing the voice. The whispering had been going on for a while, but I had been able to ignore it for the most part. Now it was louder, more insistent. I didn’t wonder whose voice it was. I’d heard it before. It was the voice of Paimon, the voice of the demon king.
I cleared my throat. “I know this whole thing is my fault . . .”
It is thy fault, worthless carcass!
“And probably since I’m the one who screwed things up I should fix them, but wouldn’t it make more sense if you did it?”
Now listen as he abandons thee!
“I mean,” I added when he didn’t say anything, “you already know these spells, right?”
Op Nine didn’t look at me. His hands tightened on the steering wheel.
See? Thou art alone. There is no one to help thee.
I rubbed my temples and said, “They’re talking to me. Inside my head. Do you think they know what I’m thinking?”
“I don’t know, Alfred.”
“Because if they do, they know what the plan is and there’s no hope.”
He echoed me, nodding. “No hope.”
“Well, at least this way I’ll never be lonely,” I said, trying to make a joke, but he didn’t laugh.
“I hear them too, Alfred,” he said quietly. “But I do not think we are possessed in the layman’s sense of the word. I believe what we are hearing are our own doubts and fears, amplified tenfold.”
“What the heck does that mean?”
“What we fear,” he said. “Our own voice of despair. The secret gnawing doubts we all have. They turn them upon us.”
Stupid, pathetic, disgusting loser! Dost thou believe we can be overcome by the likes of thee? Before Time was, we have been and shall always be! Who art thou disgusting mound of rotting flesh to challenge our dominion!
The fog was thicker than ever. With no points of reference, it didn’t seem as if we were moving at all.
“We’re not going to make it in time,” I said. “So let’s just pull to the side of the road and wait for the end.”
“Alfred,” he started, and then stopped. Something up ahead had caught his attention.
A hole had appeared in the fog, its sides perfectly smooth and round, the opening about twice the width of the car. It looked like the mouth of a tunnel.
Come to us now, carcass. Bring us the Seal.
“They’ve decided to help us,” I said.
He grunted and didn’t say anything. He had put back on the old Op Nine expressionless mask.
“Hit it,” I said, and Op Nine floored the gas.
We hit the tunnel at 230 mph and the fog in the “walls” spun and twisted with our passing. I looked behind us and saw the tunnel collapsing, closing us off.
“This isn’t going to work,” I said after a hundred miles had slid by and the words on the page had become black blobs swimming before my eyes.
“You should try to sleep,” he said.
I shook my head. “What I’d really like to do is brush my teeth. I can’t remember the last time I brushed them. You know, they’re the one thing about my personal appearance I actually took pride in.” I ran my tongue over the front ones and my left incisor jiggled. Knowing what was going to happen didn’t calm me any as I reached into my mouth and gave the tooth a gentle push. It broke off in my mouth. I spat the tooth into my palm.
“What is it?” Op Nine asked.
The coppery taste of blood in my mouth. The broken tooth in my hand. The weeping sores all over my body.
“Alfred?”
I flung the tooth to the floorboards and, knowing I shouldn’t, reached back into my mouth and tugged at one of my molars. I heard a squishing sound as it pulled free from the gum.