But either no one was listening, or no one was there anymore. And it was the second possibility that got everyone worried.
If they didn’t make it, what would become of us?
My father says they were idealistic settlers, leaving Old World to start a simpler, low-technology, farming kind of life with religion and all that. Which seems both stupid to me and also seems to have failed completely. But we were already so far out by the time whatever happened to them happened, there was no turning back, just the same course to the same place where we’ll find our own doom, no doubt.
‘How didn’t we see it before?’ I say, leaning closer to the screen.
‘No real energy signatures,’ my mum says. ‘If they’re powering themselves, it’s not through a big reactor like we’d expect.’
‘There’s a river,’ I say. ‘Maybe it’s hydro-electric.’
‘Or maybe it’s empty.’ My mum’s voice is quiet as we watch the screen. ‘It’s hard to tell if those are even actual lights or just blips in the readings.’
The little patch by the river starts getting farther away. We’re entering orbit the other direction, heading west, circling the planet once as we enter the atmosphere, and coming back round the other side to land.
‘Is that where we’re going?’ I say.
‘It’s as good a place to start as any,’ my mother says. ‘If they didn’t last, then the first thing we need to do is learn from their mistakes.’
‘Or get killed the same way.’
‘We’ve got better technology,’ my mother says. ‘And from what we know, they shunned what they had anyway, which could very easily have been why they failed.’ She looks at me. ‘That’s not going to happen to us.’
You hope, I think to myself.
We both watch as the continent rolls away from under us.
‘Ready,’ my father calls over the comm system.
‘Then let’s call that ten minutes mark,’ my mother says, pressing a countdown button.
‘Everyone up there excited?’ my father’s voice says.
‘Some of us are,’ my mother says, frowning at me.
***
‘I’m so glad we’re not going,’ Steff Taylor said the first time I saw her in class after it was announced it was my parents who were the landing party and not hers. It was actually my favourite class, arts with Bradley on the Beta. Bradley also taught us maths and agriculture, and was pretty much my favourite person on the whole convoy, even though he made me sit next to Steff Taylor since we were the only girls our age in all of the caretaker families.
Lucky us.
‘It’ll be so boring,’ Steff said, twisting her hair in her fingers. ‘Five months on that little ship with just your mum and dad for company.’
‘I can vid back to friends and classes,’ I said. ‘And I like my mum and dad.’
She sneered at me. ‘Not after five months you won’t.’
‘Steff, you used to brag about how your father-’
‘And then when you land, you’ve got to live there with who knows what kinds of scary animals and hoping your food rations last and there’s going to be weather there, Viola. Actual weather.’
‘We’ll be the first people to see it.’
‘Oh, whoopee,’ she said. ‘First people to see a deserted mudhole.’ She twisted her hair a little harder. ‘First people to die there more like.’
‘Steff Taylor!’ Bradley said from the front of the class. All the other kids huddled over their interactive art vids were suddenly looking up.
‘I’m working,’ Steff said, running her hands over her artpad.
‘Is that so?’ Bradley said. ‘Then perhaps you can come up here and show the rest of us what you’re working on.’
Steff frowned, hard, a frown I knew covered the latest grudge she was adding to her long, long list. As slowly as she could get away with, she got to her feet.
‘Thirteenth birthday,’ she whispered to me. ‘All alone.’
And I could tell by the satisfied look on her face that I reacted just exactly how she wanted.
***
‘120 seconds to orbital,’ my mother says.
‘Ready here,’ my father says over the comm, and I hear the engines change their pitch as we prepare to stop falling out of the black beyond and power our way through the atmosphere of the planet.
‘Ready here, too,’ I say, opening up screens that I won’t really use until we’re closer to the ground, looking for a clearing big enough to put down. A clearing, if I’m good enough at my job, where we might actually grow our first town.
‘90 seconds,’ my mother says.
‘Engines opening,’ my father says, and there’s another change in pitch. ‘Oxygenating the fuel.’
‘Buckle up,’ my mother says.
‘I am buckled,’ I say, then turn my chair so I can buckle into it without her seeing.
‘60 seconds,’ my mum says.
‘One more minute and we’re the first ones there!’ my dad shouts over the comm.
My mother laughs. I don’t.
‘Oh, come on, Viola,’ she says. ‘It really is exciting.’ She checks one of her screens, dials on it with her fingertips, then says, ‘30 seconds.’
‘I was happy on the ship,’ I say, quietly but so seriously my mother turns to look. ‘I don’t want to live down there.’
My mother frowns. ‘15 seconds.’
‘Fuel ready!’ my father says. ‘Let’s go atmo-surfing!’
‘Ten,’ my mother says, still looking at me. ‘Nine.’
And that’s when things go really, really wrong.
***
‘But it’s a whole year,’ I said to Bradley in one of my training tutorials less than a month before we left. ‘A year away from my friends, a year away from schoolwork-’
‘And if you stayed,’ he said. ‘It would be a year away from your parents.’
I looked back into the empty classroom. It was usually filled with the other caretaker families’ children, learning our lessons, talking to our friends. But today it was just me and Bradley, going over some of the science tech for the trip. Tomorrow, Simone from the Gamma – who I think Bradley secretly fancies – would be teaching me emergency survival skills, just in case the worst happened. But it would still just be me and her in this room, separated out from everybody else.